Christmas means to me…

It’s really no wonder that I have some ambivalent feelings around Christmas. I grew up without a secular tradition. Until I was a teenager, all of my Christmas memories were centered around church services. We sang a lot of hymns about the birth of Jesus but I never heard “Here Comes Santa Claus” except on […]

Serving Gratitude

May the gratitude in my heart Kiss all the universe. ~ Hafiz “No one is as capable of gratitude as one who has emerged from the kingdom of night.” ~Elie Wiesel   “There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything […]

Bad Day

I found this draft from November, 22, 2017, as I was doing some housekeeping on my blog. I don’t remember writing it, specifically, but it shows me I am not as happy-go-lucky as I often think. * * * In the hospital I woke up one Saturday and was having breakfast in my corner window […]

Time for a Change!

“How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.” Annie Dillard   Periodically, through my life I have found myself restless and discontented to the point that I pay attention. I do this every few years – Reevaluate my life because I suddenly feel as if I am living by rote. […]

Life is Good – Not a Struggle

This is my year to be hung up on my stroke, I guess. It’s my second year and reality has definitely set in. One morning while getting ready for water aerobics I pondered the struggle of get to the YMCA and into the pool. Then I thought, “Well, $*!@,  it’s not ever really going to […]

On the Water Again

Rowing was the coolest and most unlikely thing I did in my 60’s. I surprised myself by loving it. To the chagrin of my coach i was often swept away by the stillness of the lake in the early mornings or the beauty of the mist shrouding the mountains. My focus didn’t make me a […]

Remembering Mary on Her Birthday

When going through old albums in order to clear out my house, I stopped cold. I have sorted the treasures of friends and relatives after their passing. I don’t begrudge the time spent, it was a way of knowing more about their lives – touching the things that were important to them. Although I would […]

Compassion, again…

Compassion is not a relationship between the healer and the wounded. It’s a relationship between equals. Only when we know our own darkness well can we be present with the darkness of others. Compassion becomes real when we recognize our shared humanity.”― Pema Chödrön, The Places That Scare You: A Guide to Fearlessness in Difficult […]

More Preparation

Dear kids, I have to write another preamble. I have lived my life in such oblivion. I acknowledge that I have been a lifelong learner and have studied many disciplines and followed many paths. I am a deep thinker (or at least a constant one) but not necessarily a thorough investigator. I am a big […]

Sometimes it works…

  Well, you’ve heard a lot of bad news, you’ve heard a lot of sad news, and you deserve some good news. By now, you’re well aware that I am quite lazy. That I hate exercise! That I hate being scheduled! I hate disappointing people – especially myself. And that in spite of it all […]