…on Wanting Us to Be Together

(NOTE.  This is one of a series of requested letters that was written in 2012. Perhaps it will help you communicate your love.) I don’t like that you are so far away. This is a moment I want to share with you. Of course, I always want us to be walking and talking together.  When […]

…on Losing My Relationship with My Daughter

NOTE.  This is one of a series of requested letters that will be posted under “Form Letters” for those of you who would like an idea or a template for a letter of your own.) Dear Daughter. Please tell me what I have done.  You say there is nothing and I know it isn’t true. […]

Ramblings on Death and Uncertainty

“Since death is certain, and time of death is uncertain; what is important?” Pema Chodron,  The Way of the Bodhisattva. My mind is filled with the words of others today.  My own thoughts don’t come in proper sequence.  Some lead to blank walls.  Some lead to a gerbil wheel of questions that I can’t seem […]

No Matter Where I Go…

I’m still hung up on collectives.  Do they differ from filters?   If ever there is a lesson in being myself and living my life, as I believe best, it should be in examining my own filters and collectives. I have plenty of time to consider this when I am traveling alone.  If I think or […]

Distance to Comprehension

Distancing: to place or keep at a distance <able to distance themselves from the tragedy> (Miriam Webster) I approached San Quentin with my suitcase of preconceived ideas.  I had shored myself up for a trip through an alien land filled with people I wouldn’t recognize, couldn’t identify with, and who certainly would not have impact […]

Across the Great Divide

I went to a play in which the young protagonist was expressing her angst that in spite of having come so far since leaving her parents home, she was trapped in the strange phenomenon of being her child-self when she visited her mother.  There was one great line to the effect that “Our therapy isn’t […]

Thoughts on Solitude

Solitude has always been a prize for me to accumulate and treasure.  It’s like a mellow breeze or warm water on my toes…almost nothingness but creating a sensation of pleasure.  The thought of it brings joy. I’m learning that although I like to be alone, I’m used to snatching moments here and there.  I’m unaccustomed […]

I Wonder Why I Wander

What draws me here? Several years ago a friend went to spend time in a commune.  She and I discussed her living conditions when I visited her there, She was able to spend a lot of time in meditation, and she felt energized in body and spirit by challenging herself in her physical surroundings. My […]

Home is where…

Travel is stepping off of my real world into an abyss of the unknown.  Even when I am returning to a place I have visited before, it will have changed. (Well, two things are constant when I arrive in Mexico; 1) the friendly welcome from Raul and his family, and 2) the pink puffy plastic […]

What can I do?

There’s nothing I can do. My wonderful long-time friend lost her husband yesterday.  One minute he was there, the next he was gone from her. In many ways she and I are kindred spirits, the kind of friends who think of calling and then hear the phone ringing…and there we are.  It’s no surprise that […]