Them’s the Breaks…

Well, I was really lucky for a long time wasn’t I? I have fallen down a lot in my life. I am a darter and have historically moved before I thought. It didn’t matter when I was younger – on the road, in the middle of the street, in the kitchen or off the couch […]

A Day at the Pool

Exercise has changed for me since my stroke four years ago. I thought it would be interesting to write about a normal occurrence now. It will give insight into the day-to-day workings of my life. It’s important to me to go to the YMCA. Water aerobics does a lot for my sense of well-being. And […]

A River of Grief

“Nothing that grieves us can be called little: by the eternal laws of proportion a child’s loss of a doll and a king’s loss of a crown are events of the same size.”        Mark Twain “No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear.”                                                                       C.S. Lewis, A Grief Observed Sorrow is masterful at […]

Date Night Disclosure

Comparison is the thief of joy. Theodore Roosevelt Even at the ages of 77 and 80 my husband and I try to have a date night. I love music, we love wine, and he loves me – so we do what I want. I find live music at a winery on a Friday evening, we […]

Bad Day

I found this draft from November, 22, 2017, as I was doing some housekeeping on my blog. I don’t remember writing it, specifically, but it shows me I am not as happy-go-lucky as I often think. * * * In the hospital I woke up one Saturday and was having breakfast in my corner window […]

Life is Good – Not a Struggle

This is my year to be hung up on my stroke, I guess. It’s my second year and reality has definitely set in. One morning while getting ready for water aerobics I pondered the struggle of get to the YMCA and into the pool. Then I thought, “Well, $*!@,  it’s not ever really going to […]

On the Water Again

Rowing was the coolest and most unlikely thing I did in my 60’s. I surprised myself by loving it. To the chagrin of my coach i was often swept away by the stillness of the lake in the early mornings or the beauty of the mist shrouding the mountains. My focus didn’t make me a […]

Sometimes it works…

  Well, you’ve heard a lot of bad news, you’ve heard a lot of sad news, and you deserve some good news. By now, you’re well aware that I am quite lazy. That I hate exercise! That I hate being scheduled! I hate disappointing people – especially myself. And that in spite of it all […]

Another one bites the dust…*

Don’t demand or expect that events happen as you would wish them to. Accept events as they actually happen. That way peace is possible. Epictetus What’s up with that? I would say that I have been very accepting – and I would be wrong. A recent epiphany didn’t feel like aha moment, it felt like […]

Getting Real…kinda…

I think I understand the Slough of Despond.* I have cried more in the last month than I have in the last seven months. My feelings are close to the surface. My fear is a jagged edge. It seems ridiculous. I have a prescription for a new physical therapist. He has great expectations for the […]